2005: A reflection
It was a year that I will never forget. Ups and downs, smiles and frowns. A loss of a friend, and the love of a girl.
It was surely my last year at RMIT. This coming year will be something quite different, and I do feel, unexpected.
Work is work, just something to do.
Other events are mostly irrelevant. As I said, just ups and downs.
The most important was the passing of Matt. His death affected everyone around him deeply. You all know how you felt, so there is no point in me going into detail.
All I want to tell you is that till this day I still talk to him, I still pray to him, and I know he is listening.
But 2005 will also last long in my memory all because of a single girl. A girl that melted the ice from my heart, only to shatter it 10 months later.
I discovered a new emotion called love. And being with her made me feel it in an overwhelming way. But what I have come to realize is that this emotion is nothing but trouble. It made me feel joy, happines, safe.
To me she was the most beautiful girl in the world. But the love 'we' had was all one way. When I think back now there was no way she could have really loved me at all from the way she has treated after the breakup. And she jumped into another relationship less than a week later.
But regardless I still feel that 'love' for her. And I think I always will.
I regret that we ended the relationship so badly, when the actual time we had together was so good.
Maybe if she wasn't so self-centered and shallow, and I was payed a bit more attention we could have worked. But it is not to be. If it didn't happen now it would have happened later.
Well so long 2005. You will not be forgotten.
Much love,
Shaun.
It was surely my last year at RMIT. This coming year will be something quite different, and I do feel, unexpected.
Work is work, just something to do.
Other events are mostly irrelevant. As I said, just ups and downs.
The most important was the passing of Matt. His death affected everyone around him deeply. You all know how you felt, so there is no point in me going into detail.
All I want to tell you is that till this day I still talk to him, I still pray to him, and I know he is listening.
But 2005 will also last long in my memory all because of a single girl. A girl that melted the ice from my heart, only to shatter it 10 months later.
I discovered a new emotion called love. And being with her made me feel it in an overwhelming way. But what I have come to realize is that this emotion is nothing but trouble. It made me feel joy, happines, safe.
To me she was the most beautiful girl in the world. But the love 'we' had was all one way. When I think back now there was no way she could have really loved me at all from the way she has treated after the breakup. And she jumped into another relationship less than a week later.
But regardless I still feel that 'love' for her. And I think I always will.
I regret that we ended the relationship so badly, when the actual time we had together was so good.
Maybe if she wasn't so self-centered and shallow, and I was payed a bit more attention we could have worked. But it is not to be. If it didn't happen now it would have happened later.
Well so long 2005. You will not be forgotten.
Much love,
Shaun.
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